Learning to say, "I can't, but You can"

I just got back from Indonesia 2 days ago!

Wow. It is overwhelming, incredible, crazy, exhausting, exhilarating, and chaotic- all at the same time! I loved it so much. My heart belongs to a ten year old named Ale, the rivers I bathed in, the babies I held and kissed, and the people I came in contact with. God used Indonesia to restore my heart and hope. He used the children and the villages I lived in to breathe life back into my lungs. I know why I am on this earth now. I know why God made me with a heart for children.. and that is to live the rest of my life serving Him.


I would love to write down all of the incredible things God did during this season in my life, but it is so special, that I would rather tell you in person. However, I will share one story that drastically changed my life.


The last village we were in had about 50 kids in it. We stayed in a church and slept on the ground. Every morning, the kids would be at our window staring in. We were in Indonesia for about 1 1/2 months at this point, so we were very tired and a little burnt out. But I remember seeing the smile on those kids' faces. They were longing to be loved, held, and talked to. I would lay in my bed and tell God how exhausted I was. This outreach wasn't about me, though. It was about them. Before I came, I prayed that our team would be different. I prayed that we would die to ourselves, our desires and wants, and give to others no matter what.

In my bed I prayed that God would live through me. I said, "I CAN'T do this anymore. I am hungry, hot and tired. I need you Jesus. I need you more than the air I breathe. I can't and I am nothing without you..."

With tears falling down my face, God gave me a boost of energy. I didn't go out because I felt obligated, I went out because God truly gave me a heart and love for these children. He started living through me. It was no longer out of human effort.


I met a special boy named, Ale. He was ten years old and had a heart of gold. He was the type of kid who liked to compete in sports. And if you know me........ HAHA! I love competition. We played ping pong, volleyball, and I even taught that village baseball! I have never had so much fun in my life. God was loving these children through me!

When we left that village, everyone was in tears. I had to say bye to Ale, and it was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.


So thank you so much for your prayers and support. Your prayers have gone a long way in the little villages of Indonesia. They have touched many hearts like Ale, a little girl named Eres, and a widow named Ibu Limchin.


Remember- Allow God to live through you. We can't go through this life by ourselves. We can't, but He can.


Love,
Jenny White

P.s... call me or meet with me to hear more about what God did!

Head over Heals, butterflies in the stomach, CRAZY kind of love.

During this time, God has put Songs of Solomon on my heart. I read it daily. This season in Hawaii has been a time where I have literally fallen in love with God. It is an intimate relationship. It is like falling in love for the very first time. It's exciting, unreal at times, and it is so comfortable and peaceful. I feel like a princess with God. He is like my knight in shining armor who came to rescue me at the perfect time.

And the best part is, He will never let me go.

"You have captured my heart, my treasure, my bride. You hold it hostage with one glance of your eyes, with a single jewel of your necklace." Songs of Sol. 4:9

Jesus has wooed me. He has taken my heart captive and I could never be the same. I am His bride forever. I almost can't wait to see Jesus face to face.

Thank you all for supporting me, I am so blessed by all of your thoughts and prayers.

We leave for Borneo in 2 weeks.. Please pray for...

* Humility
* Direction for my future (I am not worried though! I am in good hands)
* Team Unity for Borneo
* Wisdom and patience for my leaders, Sam and Ashley


Mahalo!!

He>i

Check this out.

God humbled Himself, came to earth, was born in a manger and died on a cross for you and me. He thought we were special enough, our sinful selves, to die the worst pain ever imaginable just for US!

How can we ever be the same? How can we know about this, and not do something about it? I look at myself two years ago, I graduated from high school, and the first thing that comes to my mind is: " What am I going to do? What makes me the happiest? How can I earn the most money, How come I don't feel happy?"

It was all about me.

THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE FRIENDS! The same spirit that rose Christ from the dead lives in us! God literally dwells in us! There is so much more to life than my dreams, my husband, my education... He is so worth it! I want to spend the rest of my life surrendering to Him! I could never be the same!

I love you guys, I can't wait for Borneo. Mahalo for all the prayers!

LOVE,
Jenny White

God is who He says He is, or He isn't.

The other day I was sitting through a lecture, and I realized God had a huge plan for me. I thought to myself, "I am either going to take Jesus seriously, or I am just gonna pack my bags and go home and live a lukewarm/ unbiblical life." God has changed my heart so much and has transformed my desires and needs. I need Jesus. I surrender being a teacher, getting married, having children, etc. I will only go where He wants me to go, I will say what He wants me to say, and I will do what He wants me to do. This is where the rubber meets the road. I am either in or out.

I tell Jesus everyday that I am His, and He is mine. I have fallen in love with Jesus, He has romanced me. I am in so much freedom when I die to myself everyday. I no longer try to be some fancy adult, but I am now who I am, who God wants me to be- a child lying in His arms. A father likes when his child draws Him pictures and gives Him mud pies and critters she found outside, but a Father LOVES when his child sleeps quietly in His arms, vulnerable and weak. That is what I am doing for the rest of my life. Surrendering and being weak in the eyes of the Lord.

You can do this too. Christ came to set you free. Life is incredible once you die to it.

Prayer Requests:
- For others in Paia ( a hippy/surfer town) to come to know Christ.
- Homesickness ( I am a family girl, I miss them so much).
- More patience.

I love you guys and I have never been happier. Thank you for all of the prayers and thoughts.

We leave for Borneo in a little over a month. Please continue to pray for team unity and patience.

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God gave me a vision. I saw a little girl in Borneo. Her face is so beautiful and her smile is full of hope. I saw myself playing soccer with her and smiling and laughing. She reminds me of who I was when I was little, and she also reminds me of who I am now, just a little girl who loves Jesus. Her heart is innocent and she needs love. God will lead me to her in Borneo! I just know it!

Mahalo Friends!

Your sister,
Jenny White

Life Happens.

ALOHA!

This week's speaker's really focused on opening up our old wounds and baggage, and allowing God to clean out our hearts. To be honest, it was such a hard week for me.

I had to work on accepting God's grace, and Jesus' death on the cross. My personality is very work-based and man pleasing. I have always struggled with resting in God's arms, instead of trying to work and earn His unconditional love. I now know that I believed lies from the enemy. The enemy knows my heart, and He twists and tweaks the truth into something deformed and unrecognizable. I couldn't even recognize my heart and pain because of all the baggage I have tried to hide. By God's grace, the Holy Spirit gently drew me to my knees and brought my dark sin to the surface.

I have repented my sin of trying to earn God's love. His grace is efficient, His yoke is easy and light. I dropped my weight, and am now trusting in God's strength instead of mine.

I also was able to forgive, be forgiven, and walk with the knowledge that God loves me just that way I am.

I was baptized at Paia Bay by my leader, Ashley Montgomery. I feel as light as a feather and am able to listen to the voice of God so much more clearly!

Mahalo for all the prayers! We leave for Borneo soon, so I have some more prayer requests!!

- To have a desire and heart for the people of Borneo to know God! I am already getting visions of the children there, I am so excited just to love on those precious kids!

-Team Unity. The enemy knows how to attack, so please pray that our team is unified in Christ and focuses on our mission: To know God and make Him known.

Praise to God! This week had so much Spiritual warfare that I was almost ready to call home and ask for a plane ticket back. However, God has been speaking and comforting me. I am more excited than ever and can't wait for the future! All glory to God!

I love you guys. I wish you all can see where I live, the people here are so amazing! I meet so many amazing locals on the beach, and sometimes we get to talk about Jesus! Praise God!

Love,
Jenny White

More of Him, Less of Me.

I am desperately falling in love with our beautiful God. He is holding me near and I can feel His incredible love.

A girl from the Kona Base, Sarah prayed for me. God placed a word in her mind for me: Love. God is telling me that He wants me to become like a child lying at His feet. He wants me to be vulnerable and desperate. He is pursuing me strong, and I am in awe of His beauty.

The Maui base is where I belong. I am secure and in incredible hands. I am meeting genuine girls and already love them so much. Oh. God is so good! It is hard to contain.

I look at my past as a blessing. For the first time, I have experienced God's intimate touch. I don't need to try and earn Him. He is there. Waiting. He loved me first and chose me.

I have a few prayer requests..

The enemy is real. He knows the depths of my heart. He knows what hurts me. I have experienced some attacks. Please pray that I will fix my eyes upon God only. God is stronger than Satan, and has already won the war! Praise God.

Mahalo friends for praying! You are dear to my heart! :)

p.s.. I AM GOING TO BORNEO FOR MY OUTREACH! Borneo is pretty much the islands of Indonesia and near it! GOD IS GOOD.

Beginning Steps

Greetings! My name is Jenny White and I am currently on a mission for Jesus Christ. I will be in training in Maui, Hawaii for 3 months, and then I will get shipped to Southeast Asia: either China, Indonesia, or Nepal for another 2 months. My goal is to physically and emotionally show God's unconditional, incredible, and epic love to the people of Asia.

However, I cannot do all of this on my own. I need the support of my fellow brothers and sisters praying for me and the people I will be serving. Here are a few prayer requests:

- For the people of South East Asia to have sensitive, soft hearts.
- For safety and good health.
- For God's love and life to flow through my actions, words, and eyes.

Thank you so much. I will be updating this site whenever I can.

Feri bhetaula! Peace be with you and your family.