Learning to say, "I can't, but You can"

I just got back from Indonesia 2 days ago!

Wow. It is overwhelming, incredible, crazy, exhausting, exhilarating, and chaotic- all at the same time! I loved it so much. My heart belongs to a ten year old named Ale, the rivers I bathed in, the babies I held and kissed, and the people I came in contact with. God used Indonesia to restore my heart and hope. He used the children and the villages I lived in to breathe life back into my lungs. I know why I am on this earth now. I know why God made me with a heart for children.. and that is to live the rest of my life serving Him.


I would love to write down all of the incredible things God did during this season in my life, but it is so special, that I would rather tell you in person. However, I will share one story that drastically changed my life.


The last village we were in had about 50 kids in it. We stayed in a church and slept on the ground. Every morning, the kids would be at our window staring in. We were in Indonesia for about 1 1/2 months at this point, so we were very tired and a little burnt out. But I remember seeing the smile on those kids' faces. They were longing to be loved, held, and talked to. I would lay in my bed and tell God how exhausted I was. This outreach wasn't about me, though. It was about them. Before I came, I prayed that our team would be different. I prayed that we would die to ourselves, our desires and wants, and give to others no matter what.

In my bed I prayed that God would live through me. I said, "I CAN'T do this anymore. I am hungry, hot and tired. I need you Jesus. I need you more than the air I breathe. I can't and I am nothing without you..."

With tears falling down my face, God gave me a boost of energy. I didn't go out because I felt obligated, I went out because God truly gave me a heart and love for these children. He started living through me. It was no longer out of human effort.


I met a special boy named, Ale. He was ten years old and had a heart of gold. He was the type of kid who liked to compete in sports. And if you know me........ HAHA! I love competition. We played ping pong, volleyball, and I even taught that village baseball! I have never had so much fun in my life. God was loving these children through me!

When we left that village, everyone was in tears. I had to say bye to Ale, and it was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.


So thank you so much for your prayers and support. Your prayers have gone a long way in the little villages of Indonesia. They have touched many hearts like Ale, a little girl named Eres, and a widow named Ibu Limchin.


Remember- Allow God to live through you. We can't go through this life by ourselves. We can't, but He can.


Love,
Jenny White

P.s... call me or meet with me to hear more about what God did!